Enigma

It is hard...I agree. What I mean is...yeah of course in many ways NOTHING has changed but in others EVERYTHING has. I mean when you love someone in a complete way like I did and do...that never goes away but what real love drives you to do is the right thing. It may be painful and strange, but that is what sacrifice is. Forever meant forever but how it shows itself or dwells in my thoughts has completely changed. It had to. I had to love you less than God. Which came to mean I had to love you less than my husband, my kids and my life and my soul. So that is why there is the imposed distance. Ya know?